War!!

Whoaa…
=O
It’s really been forever since the last time I post my blog. So…, actually, there’s a lot to tell. I don’t even know if there’s someone out there reading my blog but oh, well. Since I type this on Word, I have plenty of time to arrange my words. Please, bear with me...
=D
I might as well start it from the Christmas days.
Because Santa isn’t real and I wanted to please my family, this time (I couldn’t use ‘this year’ for it’s already 2010 and people might think this blog is written by some kind of lunatic if I insist to) I decided to be a housemaid on the first day. There wasn’t many interesting things happened. I spent Christmas mainly on doing chores. You know, when it comes to dishwasher, I always come in handy.
Please, don’t tell me you don’t note the sarcasm.
Like the year before, there was only one of my many friends who came to my house. Yeyen, my childhood friend since we were in 4th grade.
Yup, that’s her.
=D

I sometimes wonder why it is so hard for them to come to my place. They always say that my house is too far, like, it takes almost half an hour to get to my place.
Right. Like I don’t when I come to theirs.
Oh, but I was feeling better when I could bring—yes, I brought—Maria too on the second day. That was because I came to her house on the first day and successfully persuaded her to accompany me that night to JJ’s, Yeyen’s, and Mey’s houses.




Yes, I decided to come only to my closest friends’ houses on the first night.. =P
Long story short, Maria and I paid a visit to some of our friends’ houses. And I found this yummy choconut cookies which I fell in love with. I didn’t dare to ask more about those things for the owner of the house is Maria’s friend. But I determine to get the recipe anytime soon!
Oh, and I was a little bit sad when I saw my dad bought a carton of beer. Don’t ask why cause I don’t think you would understand. Bottom line, my friend, is I despise alcohol except the one in Holy Communion.
Next, my final exams that I’ve had several days ago.
I’m not the type who study on regular basis, so I couldn’t just study that hard though it’s exam. I would just flip through the books.
That’s a reeeeaaaally bad habit that I should get rid of.
And the interesting parts began after JJ and I got anointed—in case we lost our minds and made a flower pattern on the answer sheet.
The first day, January 6th, was Research Methodology exam. Though I have been anointed, I wouldn’t lie that I was still a bit worried about how I would answer the whole questions when I haven’t read the book AT ALL. Nevertheless, what has been told to me when I was being anointed brought back my confidence and belief in Him.
=)
The whole time, I surrendered it all to Him. I didn’t understand every single thing that has been written on the paper but the punctuation marks! I wasn’t surprised cause that’s what you get when you didn’t study at all for the exam. What amazed me was how He guided me to answer it all. Oh, how I love my Father…
XD
Aaaaand … here was where the challenges began.
Let me start it from the time when I was still idolizing this senior named Malik. If you read my profile carefully, you’ll find that guy who looks good with glasses is my type. So is him. No, I wasn’t in love with him. And no, I don’t think he notices me too, so stop making my story a fairytale.
Being fidgety around my type is in my nature. If you don’t find me looking nervous at all, draw near to me and touch either my hand or my forehead. Just make sure you bring tissue to wipe your hand afterwards.
For your information, Mr. Toendan, our RM class lecturer, is Malik’s academic advisor. It seemed that Mr. Toendan had asked some of his students to watch the class. Before the exam started, he had divided the class into two groups based on the numbers in attendance list. The odd numbers group and even numbers one. I was in the last group since I was the 80th in the list.
So yes, when I was struggling hard with my exam, that guy had to be there to supervise the exam, along with his other friends. But honestly, his presence didn’t bother me as much as I thought before. Maybe because I was too preoccupied by the whole disaster-like questions. Or maybe just because He didn’t want me to get distracted. =D The point is I passed the day without any more struggles. I don’t think I would get a high score but whatever it may be, I believe that it’s the best for me. Thanks to my Father… XD
January 7th was worse.
No, it wasn’t because of my Father. He, in fact, kept helping me. The thing was I didn’t even know that that day there were two exams, Second Language Acquisition and Evaluation 1. I thought there was only Eva 1.
So I came late and was like ‘I didn’t know that there’s an SLA exam today’ to JJ. I would laugh at her expression if I wasn’t in the state of shocked too. Though it wasn’t her fault, I could feel her sorry for not telling me about the exam (I bet she forgot but oh well) by letting me use her book since it was an open-book exam. And she kept helping me everytime she saw me frowning, till the very last second.
I told you, my Father helped me.
=D
But that’s not the juicy part, mind you.
It’s in Eva 1 exam.
Mr. Toendan was still using his students to watch the groups during the exam.
Sigh.
That day, just the opposite of the day before, he asked the even numbers group to stay in the class while the odd numbers one was told to move to the class next to ours. And I was beyond happy when I realized that that guy didn’t come to supervise our group. Maybe they wanted to handle the groups just like before.
Or so I thought before I finally heard ‘You got an hour to do the exam’ with a familiar voice.
Imagine my surprise when I snapped my head just to see that Malik guy walking into the class looking gorgeous as always.
I mean, why on earth would he suddenly change his mind to supervise our group when his partner the day before didn’t do exactly like he did??
That was not a coincidence. Definitely NOT a coincidence.
How could I be so sure, you ask?
Because he did it when we had started doing the exam. Because he was the only one who changed his position from the next group to ours. Now my turn to ask you: Why didn’t he come to the class from the very beginning to distribute the question and answer sheets just like before instead of coming when we’d already started to do the exam?
Easy.
Because ‘they’ didn’t want to let me pass the day as easily as before.
What? You honestly expected me to say that he quote unquote like me?
Don’t make me laugh.
My Father had made it easy for me to do the exam because I’d studied before (yes, I studied. Don’t be that surprised) and ‘they’ just didn’t like it. I knew it from the very first he came to the class. So when I didn’t have to use my brain as hard as before and got plenty of time to even mumble a song, ‘they’ use him to tempt me. They tempted me. You know, like you tempt a kid with candies, that’s how ‘they’ tempt me with him. I was so grumpy, nervous, annoyed, and, I admit, a bit tempted at that time. I couldn’t focus on the questions as much as I did in RM exam. I had to read the same question over and over again everytime he walked past me or announced how much time left for us to finish our work.
And this was the point where I wanted to weep right there, calling out to my Father, wishing he would take me wherever He wanted but that place:
Right after I finished mumbling a song and was smiling because I just got an answer for the question I was doing, he just had to shout ‘Five minutes more’ that made me snapped my head again to him. JUST. TO. FIND. HIM. SMILING. TO. ME.
WHAT THE #*^$#^&*%$#&&*%*???!!
He never even looked at me the whole semester I was in the same class with him!!
‘They’ played with me.
‘THEY’ PLAYED WITH ME!!!
Arrrgghh….
On second thought, it was more like smiling because he was amused by my reaction. But why it had to be MY reaction that made him amused?? Why not everyone else’???
Right.
They want a war, I’ll give them one.
Let’s see who’s gonna win by the end of the whole things, ‘them’ or me and my Father.
Mwahahahaha…!!
I’ve got to stop writing this before ‘they’ start to attack my mind again.
Just for your information, Tetie, Mega, and Taci were laughing when I told the whole things to them.



I just couldn’t understand which part of my anguish that made me their laughingstock.
-_-;
One thing for sure, I’ve got to post my blog more often. It looks dull.
See you later.

That's Ray--an Aquarian for you!

I was searching for any interesting thing to read yesterday when I came across some astrological things sites. They were pretty entertaining. I even laughed at some silly things they say about my sign’s personality. I must say that I don’t believe such things, but surprisingly, some of the traits are me all over!
XD
I wanna keep those said traits in my blog so I just paste them here.
I combined them from several sites, so I had to make some changes in order that the sentences would make sense, but I’m NOT making them up. These are things I often did—even still, and will do. You’ll get the idea of what type of person Ray is and how she’s been living her life until now.
=)
Oh, if there’s any Aquarian reading this post, I hope it’ll be valuable for you. Or at least, it’ll entertain you.
And since I’m a girl, I just use female pronoun. Excuse me.
=P
Enjoy!



Aquarius (21st January - 19th February)

Symbol: The Water Bearer
Ruling Planet: Uranus
Quality: Fixed
Element: Air
Basic Trait: I Know

Likes...
• Fame
• Themselves
• Privacy
• Dreams
• Magic
• Change
• Eccentricity
• Surprises
• Living within their means

Dislikes...
• Emotion
• Intimacy
• Show-offs
• Taken for granted
• Being 'pinned down'
• Violence
• Senseless extravagance
• Commitments




Aquarian is very kind and peace loving, but likes going against the conventions every now and then. She is not a crusader and will rarely be fighting for a cause.

She loves to experiment, to explore. Her next interest may be you and she will start dissecting you under the microscopic eyes. Then, just as you begin to think that you are the most important interest in her life, she will turn away, find something new and will be busy exploring again. You will be left all embarrassed and fuming. If you are someone who has an ego, it's better to be miles away from an Aquarius person. Whether she is gay or gloomy, one thing is for sure; an Aquarian will always be analyzing the people around her.

Though she has her bouts of solitude, she will soon be back to her normal self again. Just remember not to disturb her when she wants to be alone. Ignore her and she will come back again, all happy and cheerful.

Don't ever dictate how she should live their life. She respects individuality and expect the same from you.

She doesn't trust people easily, not until she has scrutinized each and every aspect of their personality. However, once she trusts you and makes you her friend, nobody in this world can sway her against you.

She doesn't have a good memory.

Aquarian has an amazing sixth sense and her intuition is very strong. She can also know your innermost desires, without even having a word with you.

She loves freedom and pinning her down is a task that most of the people cannot accomplish.

She is an individual who likes to do her own thing and she enjoys being different.

Aquarian is extremely social people, but she also likes her personal space.

Even though she loves people, she tends to avoid getting too deeply involved in a relationship for fear of losing her independence.

Because she values her independence so, she may not make the best lovers. If she feels she is trapped, she will use any excuse to break free.

She is fiercely independent and this can make her seems cold, detached, and impersonal at times. Emotional experiences and dealing with emotions herself tends to be difficult for the Aquarius. This seemingly emotional detachment is what tends to make the Aquarian appears a bit cold and remote when it comes to deeply emotional experiences. It isn't that Aquarian is unemotional people in general, it just takes her awhile to really let people into her life. Once she lets her guard down, she is very passionate and loyal people.

She is creative and imaginative, but better at dreaming up ideas rather than putting them into practice.

Aquarian values friendship very much. Once you have a friendship with an Aquarian, you can expect her to be loyal.

Of all the signs in the zodiac, Aquarius has perhaps the biggest ego of all.

Aquarian often does not express emotion or feeling in the same way that others think she should. She also tend to withhold her emotion. She does not want to get hurt and would rather take the time to get to know people before opening up to them.

If an Aquarius has decided to NOT let a person into his life, that person will NEVER be a part of that Aquarian's life.

Aquarian is often known for holding on to bad feelings and resentments. Aquarian is quick to become bitter when things do not turn out her way.

Her extroverted nature also causes her to say whatever she feels when she feels like saying it.

Aquarian will also often change her mood. She’s volatile. One minute she will be happy, the next she will seem upset. One minute she will be joking, the next minute offended.

She does not like feeling boxed in by anything in everyday matters.

She personifies the statement “friends first” when in relationships.

She is not the type to end relationships over silly problems.

Though she is not prone to grand shows of romance, she will find creative ways to express her emotions in a way that she feels comfortable.

Because she tends to connect to her partners in ways others may not understand, it is easy for an Aquarius to feel insecure in a relationship. She can feel as if no one truly understands her. As a result, Aquarian can be hurt very easily in relationships. Aquarian is prone to feel as if she is wearing her heart on her sleeve but that her partner does not understand her.

She does not rush into relationships because she enjoys the initial courtship as much as any other part.

An Aquarius female WILL NOT dress in the latest or hottest fashions. She will dress in whatever she likes best of all. Sometimes, she will even dress in whatever is available. Comfort is an important factor in the wardrobe of an Aquarius woman. You will also never see her wearing heels that are too high.

She will listen so intently that often empathizes with others. Do not expect her to hog a conversation. She is more interested in balancing both listening and speaking with helping whoever needs her.

Aquarian dislikes commitments of any kind. However, once she has made it, she will stick to it fully.

She falls in love, but Aquarian is independent creatures, so staying in love may take a little work. She loves her freedom and it is not easily taken from her.

Her love will be subtle and unassuming. She is intense, but may prefer to be platonic most of the time.

She will trust you completely and will not be unduly suspicious of your activities.
You will also not be bothered by too much jealousy or possessiveness on her part.
Her trust arises from the fact that before committing, she had dissected your behavior under a microscope.

Just because Aquarius isn't the jealous type, doesn't mean your flirting goes unnoticed.

She will take cheating in a relationship as a serious offensive that she will never be able to forgive.

If you become unfaithful to her, she will be extremely hurt and is likely to remember the wound for a long time.

If she thinks the relationship is not working and has no chances of improving also, she will break it right away; though doing so may tear her heart into two pieces.

She will never ever be dishonest in a relationship.

There are many sides to this Water Bearer, but the one you might find frustrating is the emotional side because you'll rarely see it. Logic is the Aquarian ruling sense.

She is very loyal, but at the same time, she is also a little detached and not extremely emotional. She will be committed and remain faithful too, but do not try to bind her. Let her enjoy her freedom and in return, she will come back to you when she gets tired of her expeditions. She loves her freedom and if you can accept this, she will love you even more.

Never look down on her or she might never look up to you. She respects you and will expect the same in return.

An Aquarius female may find it difficult to express her love in the form of hugs and kisses and you will have to teach her that.

You will also have to teach her romance, since expressing emotions does not come too easily to her. She will happily hold your hand and walk besides you, but don't expect her to gaze into your eyes for hours at a stretch.

DON’T smother your Aquarian girl with too much closeness, she needs her space and will give you, yours too. Things like suspicion, possessiveness, chauvinism and criticism turn her off.

Liberated and independent, an Aquarian woman does not really care what the rest of the world thinks about her.

She always tries to balance the good with the bad.


Pheww..
So.. Quite a contradictatory type, aren’t we, Aquarians?
It also seems like we—well, more like ‘I’, in this case—have lots of bad traits.
XD
Don't worry, I wouldn't forget the credits. Credits to:
www.aquarius.arollo.com
www.exploreastrology.co.uk
horoscopes.lovetoknow.com
www.iloveindia.com