I Loved My Annoying Friend

You have a friend. An old friend. You haven't met him for like three years. He lives in a different town, far away from where you live now. Didn't keep in touch too cause he's already changed his number and he never tells you the new one. You can never forget about him cause he's a sweet part of your life. Why? Cause he used to be your best guy friend. One day, you found his account on Facebook. You added him and he confirmed. You said hi but he barely replied all your comments. You asked him when he'll come back to town but he never answered. You gave up cause you thought he's already forgotten you. Or worse, he never thinks of you the way you do to him.
Later today, he dropped a comment on your wall. He asked you why you didn't come to his house when he was home.
Man, can I say 'WHAT THE ****??!'?
Isn't it annoying??
More important, no matter how hard I've tried to, I can't shut him out of my life though he never knows how badly I miss him.
I'm an idiot, aren't I?
Seriously, I'm on the verge of tears now.
How I (wish I could) hate him.

Pathetic People and Their Stupid Opinion of Love

Whoever believes in ‘Love is Blind’ is nothing but an idiot.
Really, why do you even say ‘I can’t live without you’ when in fact you DID LIVE before you met him? Doesn’t it mean something to you?
No, it doesn’t cause you’ve been blinded by that so-called-love.
I’m getting tired of people complaining about loves of their lives, like their lives and deaths depend on it.
COME.
ON.
Do I really have to knock some senses to your head?
Why is it so hard for you, especially girls, to use your brain?? In this point, I will put it bluntly: This is why I ADORE guys and HATE girls in term of thinking in the right mind when it comes to love.
Hate me, sue me, I don’t care. And no, I’m not bashing anyone or anything. I’m just saying what I’m feeling now.
Admit it, your world does NOT revolve only around your lover. You have your parents, siblings, and friends who have already loved you before your lover does (or even DID). Why would you want to take your own life just because of some stupid who leave you whenever he feels like doing? He isn’t even worth it!
What? You said I’m only ranting just because I’ve been left by my boyfriend?
LOL.
Sorry to disappoint you but I’ve NEVER had a boyfriend. And no, it’s not because nobody likes me either. Girl, stop making excuses cause you really should make up your mind.
Has it ever crossed your mind that when you’re crying your eyes out because of him like now, he’s probably flirting with another chick out there? No? Then think about it now.
But he said he loved me, you might say. He said he just needed time to think.
The keyword here is ‘loved’. Don’t you realize that it’s in past tense already?
Oh, about that ‘needed time to think’ thing, it’s just an excuse he use to soften the blow of ‘I’m bored of you so I don’t need you anymore. Now move your fat ass out of my face’.
Harsh much?
Yeah, but I think it’s a must. Especially when I’m confronting someone who doesn’t even want to acknowledge the truth just because it hurts more than anything in her imaginary world.
Romeo and Juliet is lame and Cinderella is nothing but a fairytale. No such luck in this world, dude. If you’re looking for a perfect love, you can never find happiness for your entire life.
Nobody is perfect.
Nothing is perfect.
Don’t force yourself to make everything to be what you want it to be. Let your life flows and be thankful for everything that you’ve already had. Man can only proposes, God disposes. He has a plan for each of His beloved children, don’t you know that?
When friends turn to foes and everything goes against, leaves, and disappoints you, He will never let go of your hand no matter what. He always forgives you when you confess, no matter how many times you’ve disappointed Him. Would your lover be willing to forgive your lies and fakes for the hundredth time? Is it not enough for you to see how much He loves you by His crucifixion? He’s already shed his blood at Golghota for you, now tell me, would your lover want to shed his blood for you? Or worse, why would you even want to shed your blood for your lover but NOT for YOUR FATHER? You should know the answer by know.
I don’t know whether I should be angry or sad because of this issue. I shouldn’t even bother to write things about it when I myself don’t even know what love really means.
One thing for sure, I’m not being a bitch; I’m just being rational and I hope you can think twice about love after you read this.
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Happy Birthday!! <3 <3

September isn’t usually my favourite month of a year. It’s just an ordinary one, just like the rest. But this year, it’s become pretty extraordinary, especially on Sept 8th and 9th. You see, I have friends, Stevanie and Yeyen, one of which happens to be my best friend. Those are their birthdays. Each year, we usually only have some girls night out to celebrate them. It’s either on 8th or 9th, depends on our mood.
It started when Stev’s boyfriend, Erik, called me on September 2nd. He was planning on throwing a surprise birthday party for his lovely girlfriend. It would only be a small one cause he didn’t have that much money to make a big one. Plus, he didn’t wanna cause a chaotic afterparty. How sweet of him…
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Then I told him bout 9th being Yeyen’s birthday and we celebrating them at once. So why not make it for both of them, he suggested. He then asked me to call some of our close friends cause it was impossible for us to do it by ourselves. So I called Mey, and only her cause we’re their closest friends when we were in senior high school. Yes, we aren’t that close anymore, if you ask, since we became university students for each of us chose different majors (I’m in English Education, Mey’s in PE, Stev’s in Economics, and Yeyen’s in IT). But we keep in touch and pay a visit to each other’s house every once in a while.
But then I decided to ask Yeyen’s boyfriend, Xiang ( yes, he’s a Chinese =), to join our lil secret plan. Since I didn’t have his number and Mey did, I told Mey to ask Xiang about it. Long sory short, he said he did want to join as long as we didn’t make a ‘mean drama’ (what are we—Drama Queens?? *insert rolling eyes here*).
So on 5th we decided to discuss it furthermore at Mey’s house. That was the first time I met Erik since we graduated from elementary school eight years ago or so. Yes, he was my classmate back then. Such a long time, huh? But that’s not the surprising part. What shocked me was he’s already fallen in love with Stev since he came to our school! He was a transfer student when we were in 4th grade. I never ask him bout it but I believe she’s his first love. How sweet…
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It was a bit awkward at first but soon we were having a fun discussion. In the middle of our discussion, Xiang texted Mey, telling that he couldn’t join us cause he had something important to do. We didn’t mind since three people were enough to accomplish our not-so-impossible mission. Erik then asked us to make a survey of the prices of birthday cakes in bakery shops. I told you, we—or more like HE—didn’t have THAT MUCH money and that wasn’t including the birthday presents. That’s why we had to make it as efficient as we could.
We decided three shops in mind but ended up coming to only two of them since the last one didn’t even display any birthday cake in its display case. Erik said a blackforest would be great so we asked about it only. When I texted him the prices later that night, he seemed shock. He then texted me back, telling that he had to think twice bout it. No wonder, they were BLACKFOREST. I would just make a doughnut as her birthday cake if I were him.
Mey got her present for Yeyen that day while I didn’t but anything. I already got this cute bracelet in mind to give to Yeyen. I ordered it from my friend’s acquaintance. But when ask my friend bout it again, she said her friend didn’t have the ‘Y’ letter. That meant I had to find another thing to give as a present.
While waiting for Erik’s decision, I spent the whole afternoon on Sunday, looking for some things that I could give as birthday presents for Stev and Yeyen. The great thing was I’ve got nothing. I was so desperate that I contemplated giving them only some snacks since we’re the type of people who prefer food to fashion.
-_-;
At night, Erik texted me. He wanted to have another discussion at the same place tomorrow. Since I had classes from 1.30 till 5 P.M., I told him that I only had a free time in the morning and after my classes finished. He chose the last option and so I told Mey about it, asking if we could come to her house around that hour, in which we could.
The next day, after waiting for some time at campus and none of our lecturers seemed to come, I decided to give another try to find their birthday presents. I ended up with a cross on a necklace and some bookmarks for Yeyen’s bible in hand. I then texted Erik that I didn’t have any classes today so I came earlier. It was around 3 when he texted me that he needed another hour or so cause he was installing his friend’s computer. When he came later, we continued our discussion. Mey told us that we couldn’t include Yeyen in the birthday party cause she had classes the next night. It was officially a surprise birthday party for Stev then. I ask Mey to text Xiang, telling him that he didn’t have to join us anymore since it was no longer for her girlfriend. We also asked him not to tell Yeyen about our previous plan. We didn’t want to disappoint her. After that, we immediately went to the first bakery shop. Long story short, we got this bill in hand as a sign that we’d already ordered a birthday cake from that shop.
We still had some time so Mey and I decided to find our present for Stev since we didn’t have enough money to but it by ourselves, while Erik excused himself to go cause he had some occasion to attend. After searching for some time, we found our present along with some cute candles and wrapping paper.
The next night, I was the first one who came to the bakery shop. It was ahead of the time that we’d promised last night. I was getting more and more anxious cause none of them came to the shop. I even mistook this man who happened to be the customer for someone who work there!
If I could I would dig a hole, hide in there, and never come back to the surface again.
The time before 8.30 was chaotic. Let’s just say none of us were in our right minds. Oh and have I told you that Yeyen finally joined our mission?
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But we broke into happiness when we arrived at Stev’s house. She was crying when she saw we were coming. So sweet... We teased her all the time until the time we had to go home.
Erik had taken some pics at that precious time. I’ll think about how to show it to you later.
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I decided to come to Yeyen’s house early in the morning to give my present and had already set my alarm but when it went off in the morning, I just wanted to continue my sleep. I was reaaaaally exhausted cause I kept going out till late at night on the three previous nights. I’m easy to have a sleep deprivation if I didn’t get enough sleep and I hate it. It’ll always ruin my day.
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I ended up sending her a text, wish her a happy birthday. It was only a three-word text and as expected, she didn’t reply it. She probably got angry with me and thought I did my best to celebrate Stev’s birthday but not for her, my own best friend. I decided to settle it later that noon before I go to campus. His father has this small store near my campus and she often works there in her free time. When I got there, her niece told me that she’d already gone to her campus.
Really, why is it so hard when it comes to giving a present?
No?
Well, it only works on me then.
I decided to come to her house after all my class finish. Thank God, none of our lecturers came just like the past days. When I got to her house, she was home and Mey was there too. I wondered if she’d already given her present to Yeyen. I approached them and said nothing when I gave it to Yeyen. She looked surprise. Mey, too.
Huh? I thought she’d already did it. But no, cause she then gave hers after a few moment.
Yeyen said that she WAS annoyed when she read my text and I just laughed. I told her the truth and she seemed to understand our exhaustion and my burning passion for sleep. Yes, you heard it right.
And that was it.
Pheww, I swear this is the longest blog I’ve ever posted! It took more than two pages of Words before I posted it here.
I hope Stev and Yeyen have had their memorable birthday.
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Now whose birthday may we celebrate next, hm?
Oh, my English isn’t perfect so corrections to my blog are welcome.
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Oh, my brother's just gone to the hospital. He got asthma attack because of the bad weather. Stupid smog!!
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I hope he's gonna be alright. I'm going to the hospital now.